I published. But I don’t feel any different.

So many times in life I have found myself striving towards an achievement, only to be disappointed once I’m there, because I don’t feel any different.

Bachelor’s degrees, Master’s degrees, children, holidays, big celebrations…all fell short of the fantasies I enjoyed, before I experienced them.

My brain wants to tell me it’s more money and a PhD I need! haha … but deep down today I know better. I know that external things can never bring me the peace and serenity I seek, that I have always sought. The peace and serenity and connection I see everyone around me also seeking.

So I published my blog. It wasn’t perfect, but that’s not why I feel semi-hollow. It’s because I disconnected myself in order to get this done, I’ve become unbalanced. This hollow feeling is the price of disconnection for me. So excuse me whilst I go and get a spiritual tune-up!

Meme taken from Twitter account @AlexisH38538082

Published by Alexis Howell

I'm an MBA graduate and longtime small business owner who is transitioning into blogging and podcasting. Pray for me yeah? I'm based in Sydney, Australia. I'm into writing, boxing, plant based food, songwriting, talking, meditation and reviewing online purchases.

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